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How It Is #10: Like Wearing No Skin

  I wrote this a few weeks ago. It’s part of a long-running series on my experience of severe postnatal depression, which has been part of my life for over two years now. You can find the whole series here, and the first post here. One of the reasons I can’t sleep tonight is the […]

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How It Is #9: Live Edition

The writer Dorothy Parker famously said ‘I hate writing. I like having written.’ On Saturday night I said to Jody, ‘Please remind me next time I’m considering a preaching engagement: I don’t actually like preaching.’ On Sunday morning I preached at North Porirua Baptist Church. I loved it. I hate the anticipation of preaching – […]

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How It Is #8: Going Public

What do people need to know about postnatal depression? I have been asked to speak at a Mothers’ Day service at North Porirua Baptist Church. They are inviting parents from their community and want me to speak about PND. I’m going to tell some of my story, perhaps structured around some key headings: PND Surprises […]

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How It Is #7: The Fog Is Lifting

  For the first time in 16 months, the fog is lifting. I am feeling ‘normal’ over half the time now, and it feels amazing. Most of the time, now, I can cope with the unexpected, I can make decisions, I can bounce back from disappointments. I am regaining creativity in a few directions. I’m […]

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How It Is #6: Anhedonia

This is the sixth post in a series on my experience of postnatal depression.  If you want to start at the start, the first is here, or you can see the series list here. Please feel free to pass any of them around using the share buttons at the bottom of the post.      Today […]

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How It Is #5: A Stranger In My Head

This is the fifth post in a series reflecting on my experience of postnatal depression. Feel free to head also to How It Is #1, How It Is #2, How It Is #3: What to Say and How It Is #4: On A Bad Day, and feel free to pass any of them around, if they’re helpful, using the share […]

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How It Is: Stories of Postnatal Depression: On A Bad Day

Today is A Bad Day. It didn’t start out that way, and I don’t know quite how it slipped into the chasm, but at about 1.15pm I suddenly felt deflated. I don’t want to be a downer, but I thought it might be helpful to describe what A Bad Day can be like. Quite a […]

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How It Is #3: What to Say to Someone with Postnatal Depression

  The numbers are clear.  If you know a few parents, you know someone who’s had postnatal depression, whether they blogged about it or not. In response to my posts about my experiences, here and here, I’ve discovered half a dozen of my friends have been through it recently, and another few a long time […]

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How It Is #2: My Story of Postnatal Depression

This is the second post in a series on my experience of postnatal depression. The first is here.     I was quietly terrified about childbirth. So unknown! So dangerous! But I was very lucky. Despite a slightly rocky late pregnancy, I had a pretty positive labour and birth experience, and then a very happy […]

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How It Is #1: My Story of Postnatal Depression

The clicks surprised me. On my first real post here, I mentioned postnatal depression (PND), and linked the term to a useful Kiwi resource website on PND, Mothers Matter. That link is still the most clicked on this blog, so I’ve decided to write a bit more about my experience of PND, in case it’s […]

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